Summertime Sadness

I feel like the boy I meta discuss
in that
I feel the need to hide my illnesses
through saying things to loved ones like
“it isn’t good to talk like that
about celebrity suicide
because it heightens the chance
that some people with depression
might act on their own compulsions”
and other things like that
wherein the some people means me
though the problem with that is
family believes
they don’t know those some people
so they go on talking
and I’m left struggling
and unable to actually speak to them