dva zelenaDear Self
Choose Safety Over Sentimentality
You Said Things In Your Head
As You Walked The Nighttime Streets
Smart Advice To Fictional Characters
Advice You Pretend You Don’t Know
You Should Listen
Because You Can’t Get To That Point
The One That Makes You Cry Happy Tears
If You’re Still Holding On
Hoping Things Could Get Good Like They Used To Be
“it doesn’t take much cruelty to make people afraid of your kindness"
Why Was There Even Any Question
As You Wrote Him The Letter
Spelling Things Out
You Know You Knew
And This Can Be Your Own
No One Needs To Know
Because They’ll Try To Convince You Otherwise
But When You Thought Back To Last Year
And Looked At Old Photos
You Felt It Again
The Origin Of That Feeling
And If That Origin Is A Living Breathing Human
That Human Ought To Be Avoided
Those Humans Are Not Your Home
And It Is Unwise
Assuming There Is Anything That Can Be Done
To Make Them Home Again
This Is Your Home Now
As Far From T
3:35 AMI forget I have to sleep
Because I feel like I have bigger fish to fry
And then I look at the clock
And I’m like
“Dammit, not again!”
And it just happened
As per usual
u hav a way w the ladies muchachoI’ve apparently convinced my friend
That I’m some sort of queer lady-charmer
But I certainly wish
Yet it’s funny
I convinced myself I’m a gorgeous goddess
(It’s a good thing to do, I’ll have you know)
And I wonder if I’m perhaps convincing others
It worries me, to be honest,
That this parallels
A large amount of preternatural weight-loss
I don’t dig that
But I apparently am cute to others
(And I apparently set off gay-dars)
Those two things I *am* into
But I’m happy with knowing
I find myself utterly charming
And I obviously know I’m queer as fuck
And if others all of a sudden seem to notice
Woah, who am I to argue
R.I.P. Glitter Pants (2009-2015)I’m so mad about this
I’m losing weight exponentially over short stints of time
And all I get from it is
“OH You look so good”
“You look so much better than when I last saw you”
But my favorite pants no longer fit
I was watching Hedwig
And Tommy had well-fitting glitter pants
And I was like,
“You lucky bastard-
Mine keep falling off”
I've Lost Nearly 10 lbs Over The Last 17 DaysAnd I’m scared that something in my mind
Is telling me this is a good thing
It just so happens a lot of good stuff is happening at this time
And it’s unwise to assume these changes
Have anything to do with my happiness
I can’t afford an eating disorder
And according to a PSA I saw
Pinning occurrences in your life to your weight
For good or for ill
Is a sign of having an E.D.
And I want nothing of that
I *Should* Probably Call Him… So
I haven’t talked to my dad in a month
Because I wanted to do an experiment
To see if he’d call
If he’d remember I left
Mama offered to hand the phone over
And I heard him in the background
And I said no
Because I was crying
Because I was a mess
Because I sprained my leg
And he doesn’t believe I can make it here
And I’d rather break my leg entirely
Than risk proving him right
winter brew.he wrote me a love song
in a teacup.
I drank down the words,
let them warm me up
from the inside out.
Six Word Stories~She's far stronger than you think.
I love you: three deadly words.
Be careful; she's a delicate butterfly.
Can't the peace overcome the hate?
You and I, we are perfect.
His lips are warm, for now.
Hold me until dawn's subtle light.
He's rare, don't loosen your grip.
Your lethal words aren't welcome here.
You mean the world to her.
Use more tact the next time.
His heart is torn to pieces.
You only gave her shattered glass.
He had my heart held captive.
This Is SchizophreniaI feel like I'm talking to myself,
and not in the humorous way,
not like the, I'm “going” insane way
because I am Insane.
I'm insane in the sense that I can hear
things that aren't necessarily there,
things that burrow their little bodies
inside of my ears.
And insane in the way I see things, things that
you can't see. And trust me it's
nothing to “feel” special about, not a magic act,
not a special power that I harness.
This is schizophrenia.
This is a delusion so real and “natural”
that you can't tell whether it's imagination
or something unnatural
This is a nightmare that never goes away,
that a pinch to the arm only angers more
than medications that are supposed to stop
the mental sores.
These are arms so red and angry,
because pinching doesn't work,
but you pinch and pinch and pinch
in order to maintain some sort of normality.
And these next few lines are not to
dote down on Christians, because
I'm one of you. Just God's
forsaken child, I
god is love
i want to scream god is love. i want to hide god is love i want to cry god is love i want to give up god is love i want to fight. god is love. i want to hate. god is love i want to die. god is love i want to disappear but god is love. i want to cry god is love. never give up dear friends for we are not alone for god is love
dear friend reverse thinking for inspiration . it does not matter which religion you are. we are his children there is light in the darkness donnot give up
Rest In PowerThere is a girl
That won't be able to grow up now.
Just because closed minded people,
Refused to use the right pronouns.
There is a boy
That won't be able to get married.
Or have a chance to change the world.
Because his mother abused him with her words.
I don't understand why people can't just see
Someone who looks or thinks differently.
And see something beautiful, something unique.
Instead they live in fear of the monster
That is diversity.
I am speaking to you, parents.
Of all the people us kids look up to.
It is you.
We look to you for guidance,
We look to you for reassurance
And we look to you for love.
If you can't accept the possibility
That your kid might turn out differently
Than you or other people's children.
Then don't have kids.
Because honestly to be a parent
You need love.
And that is something you obviously
HopeWhen no one else ever seemed to notice me,
You were the first to say "hello".
And you did so with beaming joy.
When I felt so outcast and alone from the world,
You were the one who sat by my side.
And listened with an open heart.
When no one else would acknowledge my very existence,
You were the one to reach out and bare your soul to me.
And you made me feel like somebody.
When I thought of so many reasons to die...
You became my reason to live...
And I will never forget that.
This Isn't the EndDon't make the same mistake I did.
I've been watching you.
How you've been slowly slipping away.
I've laid next to you on the days
That you lay in bed and watch the light
Move across your room.
As the sun crawls through the sky.
I've watched you before you wake up.
Before you get out of bed.
How you whisper that it's all just in your head.
How you take out your favorite sweater.
The marks are hidden, gone.
No one would ever know better.
I've watched you reject meal after meal.
Because you just don't 'feel' Like eating.
And to be perfectly honest,
You don't feel like living.
I've watched you stand on the roof top.
I've watched you examine the bill bottles.
But I am also the thing that makes you stop.
And put the things away.
The thing that tells you that you won't die today.
Because I've been watching you
I know the feeling too.
But we're not the same.
And it'd be such a shame
To see someone as,
And as brilliant as you.
Make the same mistake as me.
Keep your head hel
Soldier BoyOne day he came home,
A man given freedom.
He looked in the mirror,
And liked what he saw...
The days wore on,
And he lived his life.
Morning PT was a distant memory,
So too were the shouts of a Sergeant.
Training came thrice at first,
Then twice, then once,
The days wore on...
And life became harder,
Sacrifices were made.
He looked in the mirror one day,
And didn't like what he saw.
Not the pot-bellied man working for a few scraps.
Nor the slovenly fellow who'd forgotten how to clean his kit.
He earned his freedom, but he had lost what he respected...
And the days wore on...
And so he went out running, one fateful day,
His lungs burning with every breath.
Yet despite the pain inside his chest,
He resolved the soldier, would return to his best.
"You've been gone a long time Corporal Chen, what say we go once more around
-Word of Chen, One-shot, 24 February
exit stage leftif this were a movie, this would be the moment
i break down crying in your arms and i tell you
every little thing about myself that i’ve learned
to hate at four in the morning when i wake up
and ask myself why i’m still alone and you would piece my world
back together with your hands and a simple phrase and i would
no longer want to cry all the damn time and i would
want to leave the house and actually end up leaving the house
and if this were a movie that would be the climax and
that would be the ending scene, us
falling to the ground, me in your arms,
me with my make up running, me thanking god
that i met you, you holding me, you pressing your face to my
hair, you thanking god that you were able to get to me in time
and if this were a movie you would hold my hand
through turning off ovens and locking
the backdoor at night and you would cook dinner on the nights that
i can’t get out of the bedroom and you would eventually figure
out not to worry about me when i
I was so mean, my god was I mean, and you were the innocent archetype. You were never that open, or naive after that year. I feel like I broke you, but it took me so long to realize, and now I cannot apologize since, I'm sure, you don't remember. Many of the people I hurt don't remember me, but my words shaped their souls and I wish I could take all that back. It's true, you know, those that are hurt tend to hurt others, but you are anomalistically kind, and I wish I could be as devoted to anything in life as you were to everything. You'll make it I swear, even while I am stuck. I'll be your Renfield, perhaps then I'll earn your forgiveness.