Don't Forget To Remember

I feel like I have to trigger myself
(for lack of a better word)
By looking at photos of places
where the scariest things
that ever happened to me
happened
And hear the voices that made me cringe

I need to bring myself back to that misery now that I’m safe
I need my blood to boil
I need to shake within my skin
I need to be brought to tears that suffocate my soul
In order to write of when that misery was the norm
I’ll shake and wretch and kill myself writing this

And that’s foolish
I’m aware
But I don’t think I could make good art if I keep myself safe