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Ateityje AdresuI'm scared that when I'm olderAteityje Adresu by ~RavynLaRue
I will see this all as nothing
For I will have seen worse by then
I know that's nearly inevitable
At least if I live long
Which I fully intend on doing
So this might seem like nothing
And although I've done it before
I'm doing it again
Hello future self, I am writing to you now
Can you recall how you felt when you applied to come here?
Can you recall how you thought everyday you'd be at your most triumphant?
Remember how you saved the message on the phone when mama said I got an acceptance letter?
Remember how, for a while, the box it was sent in was your most cherished belonging?
There were tears in your eyes and excitement in your heart when you told your brother.
You thought it'd be like your home.
Remember how SPCPA was home?
I promise you now, you long for it more than anything.
You met your un-biological sister there.
You met nearly all those you call your beloveds.
You were comfortable singing.
You could be whatever you wanted to be, as long as you
Canu HurtrwyddI don't want to be cowardly anymoreCanu Hurtrwydd by ~RavynLaRue
And I'm well aware that being brave-
Means I'm simultaneously choosing to be dumb
But in this moment-
This part of my life-
I feel it's necessary to go for this
I can count many moments of alleged intelligence
And astonishingly few moments of courage
My soul needs to sing again
And singing freely requires some stupidity
Since it's inevitable that people will try to silence you
They'll try to break you-
And hurt you-
And take away everything you've worked in this life for
I know that because that's what they're doing now-
Whenever a tiny mumble escapes my tightened lips
But I need to go further
Chance the consequences
I have to be as brave as I pretend to be
Just like Sierra
I need this right now
I just need this right now
Regardless of how foolish I'm well aware that this will be
My soul needs to sing again
Ain't Got No SleepNo sleep ain't goodAin't Got No Sleep by ~RavynLaRue
Nor is coffee
But I do both
And one fuels the other
This ain't good
No, this ain't good
I'm all veins and bloodshot eyes
After 10 cups of coffee I'm thinkin'
No, this ain't good at all
But I do it
227-244-6773You're the only one I can talk to on the phone227-244-6773 by ~RavynLaRue
So it hurts especially
When you get mad with me for taking up your time
As if I don't have things to do, too
But they aren't more important than talking to you for a bit
Though your things are more important than talking to me
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